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Sunday, July 30, 2006
If you drink too much caffeine at one time, it can make you feel nervous or jumpy. Your hands may shake. You may feel like there's something you forgot to do. Too much caffeine will make it hard to fall asleep, which might mean you won't be able to pay attention in school the next day. i've got THREE tests tomorrow. omg. And too much caffeine can give you a stomachache, headache, or a racing heartbeat. In fact, kids with heart problems should not drink caffeine because it's known to affect heart rates and force the heart to work harder. *
the joy that ice-cream brings. =)
Symptoms of too much caffeine (headache, tremor, nervousness, irritability, increased sensitivity), results from an intake of 200 to 500 milligrams of caffeine daily (two to six cups of coffee or three to eight cups of tea).
i learn now, that sometimes making your money worth, doesn't apply to somethings.
gave tab her bible! she's very happy, or so she claims. nevermind i BELIEVE that she's really happy, and she ought to be cause i took a month to save enough cash. haha.
oh, btw! juliana and i went to have our dresses tailored. =) and my mums friend was telling me how MY MUMS' figure was so nice! and that people then, wear jeans waist-high. which explains why they have slender figures. well haha, you want a nice figure? be traditional! don on a waist-high jean(s).
ZOMG.
blogged this entry a long long while back. somewhere in june. no harm posting here CAUSE I RECKON NO ONE WILL SEE IT.
watching x-men tomorrow, probably.
whose up for da vinci?
anyway guess what! today i met zi hui while i was on my way to the bus stop. like wayy early. haha, then when i wanted to board the bus, i saw our chief invigilator coming down from the bus! and he wore the exact same clothes as yesterday! tight pants and all. lol. and he gave me a stiff smile. like :|
my eyes are glued to the screen, watching shows off youtube again and again, movies after movies, series after series. ohmygah. and my o levels is oh-so-soon. and i'm relaxing. geez.
sigh pamela, sigh, five more months to go, and i'm not prepared at all i'm watching korean movies, taiwan idol dramas, reading comics, reading trashy magazines, sleeping, swooning at how handsome the lead actor is and wish my life would be oh-so-like-the-shows, and how fairytales portray how human lives was supposed to be. purrfecto. but uh-uh, i'm suppose to study right?
sigh, i hate it when people who took their os last year, and they come up and tell me not to fret over it cause they studied like in september and they did oh-so-well. well rollseyes* it's impossible not to fret cause i'm in frigging normal academic. and i'm paranoid.
ohmygah, this entry wasn't suppose to turn out this way, well sigh, just cause some beephead didn't tell me some beepthing and it's so irritating cause i waited two effing whole hours and more for that beepthing;
more and more beep heads are coming up to me and telling me that o levels is just a piece of cake. with cream and all, well i'm sorry, i'm fretting like how i was afraid for my n levels right? and likewise for my o's and so what you guys are over and done with that phase? well i'm not. and stop telling me that you did SO WELL cause i am different from you and we have different styles of doing things. so stop telling me that if i don't get 13points for o levels i'm as good as a loser. so shutup. and oh, quit telling me that math is easy science is cake, English is like peanuts and everything else falls into place. well so-oo-ray right, i'm in normal after all, and i can so see the standards between NA and express rig-ght? like oh it's not called discrimination afterall, it's just the standards and the social stigma attached to being in my level. well whatever you beephead, if i'm not cleverer then you are, at least i know i'm not even half as weird as you. cause you laugh at the stupidest thing. even that NAs all ought to submit to their fate of not being as intellectual as you are. i don't know why you found that funny and laugh your butt off cause nobody laughed and you laughed at your own comment. well ha-ha.
gosh, that all happened a while ago and recently, and i've been pissed about it since forever, you words are deeply etched in my mind and will always be, so screw you asshole. i hate people like you who look down, and discriminate. and stop acting as if we're the bestest of friends. sheesh.
fyi: i'm not talking about any certain someone here cause it's some people. and by some, i meant all guys. no girls. funny how girls are more considerate?
note to all: that beephead reads my blog so i can't reveal details cause i'm cowardly enough to not own up to my wrong doings.
gah, i sound like some air-headed bitch. and i apologise. oops.
i'm sorry, i lack the courage. i'm gonna watch bimbo shows until my head clears up and i spin around in circles like some moron, cause i'm clearly acting all stupid.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
omg. some people think they're so SO great that they can just treat me like shit. i know that all guys and i mean ALL except maybe for the 0.000001% that i've yet to meet are all SHALLOW MINDED FREAKS.
yes.
so what, im not pretty, im not intelligent, i don't have a nice figure, i don't allow myself to hang off your arm like a trophy. SO? wth. and i'm treated like trash. wow! thanks a lot man.
SUPERFICIAL WORLD.
all pretty sexy perfect lil girls win. while the rest are left aside. wow! how do i feel man, wonderful! like take D for eg. he forgets not-so-pretty girls. and he's at the beck-and-call of EVERY chio bu. WOW. wonderful aint it?
and lets take J for another eg. he msgs you when he feels like it. and expects a bloody reply. and then, he replies like two hours later. wow! nvm him. who says i'm replying anyway?
and lets take G for ANOTHER eg. he is a really nice guy. i thought he was different. well he IS different. much more sincere and nice. but now, he's changed completely after his o's he moved on and likes some dua chio bu. and comes to me and say who and who is damn chio and all. i wanna jio her. like N like that. wtf.
wow. so many more to say.
and lets take FH for another eg. he's different. he prolly makes up the 0.00001%. but once he doesn't like you anymore, you're like.. (put it crudely) trash. insignificant.
wow i sure am some loser bitch girl whom EVERYONE won't want to associate themselves with huh? and i can't bloody do vectors. wow.
thanks a lot people. i really NEEDED all that shit.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
On Sunday, Pastor Tommy Barnett came to our church as a guest speaker and i must say that he is very very GOOD. =))) very refreshing.
i sat there for two sermons straight without leaving the sanctuary, and despite me being all tired after sleeping for a few hours, i was really energise and eager (for once haha!) to hear what he has to say. well firstly its because the sermons were different, and it was very personal. he shared a lot about himself and used actual events to show us how God works. it's AMAZING. i wish i had gone for the 3pm and 7pm service! maybe i'll just get the disc.
anyway i didn't know our church donated money to help the hurricane katrina victims! pastor barnett whose also the senior pastor of some arizona church provides humanitarian aid to the hurricane katrina victims, giving them homes to live in and about US10,000 to rebuild their lives and jobs. pretty much A LOT for so many people. click here to see the dream centre.
so anyway! in order to show their gratitute, they did a thank-you video and it was so nice!! =) i loved the video. it brings me such joy to see those victims laughing and crying because they have found new homes. it's like a God given chance to live again. hahaha. anyway his sermon rocks and i don't mind going over to arizona one day to pop by their church and see it. one day, haha.
so anyway it's amazing to see how God works, pastor barnett said something about ''if you put God first, he will take care of the rest'' something along that line and it's so true. i wish i had greater faith, and believe in things which are not visible to the naked eye.
and i wish that God would show me what he wants me to do in my life, i feel so goal-less like my life revolves around books and more books, i mean like what ministry i would want to or ought to do? like what i ought to do for my future and such. relying on myself all the time isn't a good thing. not like im good at relying on myself in the first place.
no, i must have faith. =)
and pastor barnett doesn't look anything close to the photos! hahaha.
i want to change my world~
secretly i wished that you would look at me. =(
Saturday, July 08, 2006
I want to get into Singapore poly.
I want to do business.
I want to do first three months.
I want to excel in math.
I want to excel in EVERYTHING.
I want to succeed in life.
I want to do well for O levels.
I want to have self discipline.
and so why am i not studying when i have a mere two/four months more months to prelims and o's??
and why is my math still at the F9 stage?!
and why am i online still at 2.44am on a saturday night. sunday morning. when i've got church the next day. and i've not done the cell question and wrote out the lyrics??!
WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING TO MYSELF!?
omg.
anyway i don't think anyone would see this. if you do, good for you. or rather you're down on your luck.
GAH i feel so screwed up. why? because it's the O levels and i'm taking it ever so lightly? people are studying their butts off until they reached a point where they can take it no longer because they think that what they've studied (which is A LOT) isn't enough. and they break down.
and what am i doing? oh right.. i'm taking it so lightly as if the o's are two three years away. omg. i've never felt so useless.
and they say the greatest enemy you'll ever overcome is yourself. how very true. i lack self-discipline. and what am i good at? oh right, procrastinating and whats that? excuses? well yea. i can give myself LOTS of cheesy excuses to convince myself that what what what can be done tomorrow and all that jazz..
oh i so hate myself for that.
omg.
when will i ever learn?
i want to get into Singapore poly.
i want to do business.
i want to do 1st 3 mths.
i want to do well in all my subs for o's.
those are my goals. well for now that is.
GOSH.
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