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Thursday, October 19, 2006
pamela, you're so stupid sometimes.
why, didn't you appreciate?
so funny.
i want to laugh at my own stupidity.
you made me promise to not cry. haha, too late.
and. i don't know i won't change my url, i won;t change my password. i'll leave it all the same.
everything will be left the same till i let everything sink in.
sink in that ive lost you? and why? cause i didn't treasure and appreciate.
shit pamela. you're sucha bitch.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
shit i sound so clingy.
what happened to me?!
i feel so bad that you know i sleep at the time when you're awake. then you have to compromise or we won't get to talk.
dang. i'll sleep like how normal humans do now. probably it'll be good for me too.
sigh. i miss you, =(, not good eh? since im having exams and all. but i do. sigh.
i'll give the world anything to see you now. double sigh.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
i miss you so much, since sunday, or rather everyday. everytime after we part, i'll be so sad. sigh, sometimes i hate the o's i hate the fact that i'm brought up this way. i don't get to have my way sometimes.
absence makes the heart fonder, thats what they all say. but too much absence will eventually make things stale. but i'm glad i'm not at that point yet and hopefully won't go there.
sigh, anyways i miss you so much. i don't know why but i can't express myself verbally. i don't know if it's a good thing that i'm starting to feel comfortable around you. if you feel that we're drifting apart, i don't know that too. but all i know is that i feel closer to you in a way now.
maybe cause everything between us very 'exposed'? i know more about you, your past, and you on the other hand knows what i'm thinking and such.
i think i'm a rock? lol, laughing things off waving them away. why? just so that i won't have to hurt so much. when i miss you i hurt so much that i don't even study and just stare in to space reminiscing about the days spent together.
i like your shoulders i like your smell i like your hugs i like your kiss. =D
ok redundant post but just bits and pieces of what im feeling now.
maelstrom of conflicting emotions, half of me wants to let it all out, the other half is afraid. afraid of what might happen and yadah.
and i think i'm neglecting us. you know? chee, i can't wait for friday, i can't wait to see the ledge again. i can't wait to see you.
and i think you're busy cause MAYBE you're planning for my bday and stuffs.
and i appreciate it all, it goes without saying. you're the best gift that has happened to me. and no i don't play with people's feelings and likewise i don't want to be played to. sooo yeah. im realllly serious. and i'll try to be more expressive.
holding it all inside isn't good huh.
rah. i miss you.
oh btw, i'm so glad that God is evident in our relationship.
hold me in your arms never let me go..
Sunday, October 01, 2006
and i'm serious about us, i don't play around to begin with.
and today was good lah, hahaha, i was so so tired, with cell and all i'm glad i went out in the end. =)
anyways, 29 days or rather 28days more to the stinking o's and just now when i was studying coasts i swear my tears were SO CLOSE to spilling out, i don't usually cry, so it's weird. but anyway why? cause it's called last minute cramming in of information. sigh, i've planned out my study schedule for this week, and i hope i can really really accomplish it. as for the computer, it'll be left one side for a while.
rahh, stabbing my pen on to the paper, scribbling gibberish furiously. rahh, the stress is eating me up from the inside. and i don't have time already. and gawd. i don't know whether to leave my geog alone, and just focus on my sciences and math and others but not geog? but thats a big risk. rahh. omgah. geog's too heavy. but no no no, can't falter. not now. damn.
sheesh, anyway cell was horrible today. ernie was probably tired, but once he came in, he sort of demanded silence, and was being all weird and all. sharing don't know what and everything. it was so quiet.
sigh, long week ahead. and i don't have time left. if anything i can do with lots of energy, willpower, time, good and effective brains now.
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